Despair

Sinking deeper into darkness
clawing walls along the way
grasping but not holding
where is the light of day

falling faster than the light years
seconds fleeting one by one
heading down so quickly
Will the ending never come

No ending, no beginning
just losing twilights gleam
no stars are there appearing
A nightmare or a dream

Reaching arms out, catch me someone
grab my hands and keep me safe
Pull me from this downward spiral
I am falling throughout space

Is this the way it feels
When your mind is losing pace
Is this how death will take you
How will you know the place

As you crawl through tortured chambers
no light comes seeping in
Do you pay for what you've done in life
For each and every sin

God send an angel for me
let him lift me with his wings
don't let me keep on falling
and see what darkness brings

Will I waken from this endless fall
I need to be touched by someone
Oh help me, hear my call
Open my eyes quickly, let me see the sun

And suddenly the brightness
The pastures and the trees
The flowers and the music
The soft and gentle breeze

I have fallen through the darkness
Through the spiral of despair
I found the strength I needed
A lovely breath of air

How wonderful to be here
Where ever is this place
The fear has left me peaceful
I am smiled on with grace

So if all I have just gone through
is what dying is about
then what was all the fear for
God helped this poor soul out

You're in Heaven

by Elsie Duggan, Age 82, Wappingers Falls, NY